Little Voices in My Head

In other news. Some of you may remember a blog I posted a few days ago on my LV site titled “Mike Story Time”. *If you don’t know it, GO READ IT YOU FOOLS!* Just by happenstance, I actually had a very long conversation with Mike himself over AIM last night. It was thrilling to catch up with that crazy Mo’Fo’ again. It had been over 4 years since the last time I talked to him. How insane is that?! But we picked back up again like it had only been 4 minutes. I love having friends like that. Some people come into your life, and they just leave such and impression, that your soul remembers theirs no matter what. No matter how much time has passed, when you DO reunite, it’s like you just click again. I can count those friends of mine and run out of fingers, and I’m proud of that. I don’t think it has anything to do with who I am, I think it says a lot about you all. I’ve said it before, and I will continue to do so, I have the most amazing friends and family on the planet. I wouldn’t trade any of you for your weight in gold. (and have you SEEN the price of gold nowadays?!)

On a more personal note: I got called a whore the other day. Not by anyone who matters, mind you. True, it was by someone who has actually slept with me, so it is kinda ironic.(wouldn’t that make him a ‘whore fucker’?) LOL He wasn’t joking. Now, I can take a joke, I can even call myself such, as I think any woman who takes dinner and a movie as payment for ’services’ is kind of a whore without the cash, but he was TRYING to insult me. I think laughing in his interweb face was kinda mean and catty of me, but I digress. He called me such because I won’t sleep with him again NOW. (This was 7 years ago that I did in the first place) Not my best moment in history, I’ll admit, but dude, when did NOT fucking someone earn you whore status? I mean, the US dollar is worth LESS than the Japanese Yen, A porn star is governor of a state, phat means cool, which is hot, and saying ‘no’ makes you a whore? I’m so confused!! So after promptly pointing out the error in that logic, I deleted his little tushie from my contact list and proceeded to move on with my night. But the convo DID get me thinking…

What does define whore status? Is it a state of mind, or a lack thereof? To me, it’s the lack. When you remove the choice from the scenario, and are sleeping with someone JUST to be sleeping with someone, that’s whory. When you’re making a choice to have sex because you want to have sex WITH that person, by all means, to each their own. It’s a fine line, but it makes a huge difference. At least, it does to me. *as Leroy is cheering me on, and Yenta is mentally smacking me for even using the word ‘whore’ so many times*

Carissa the Befuddled